Adoption Process – Week 39 (Mother’s Day) 5/11/2005
I’m several days late with this post. So sorry to my faithful readers…
I think the obvious highlight of the week was Mother’s Day, which went over notably different than the previous 5 Mother’s Days. Mother’s Day while growing up is all about your own mother, and this is right and good. Mothers are special and wonderful and are to be celebrated!
However, when you start heading towards motherhood yourself, this special day takes on a new meaning. You long for the day that you will be the mother that is being cherished and celebrated. It started with a pregnancy loss in early 2000. From there I watched all the other young marrieds both family and friends alike around me become mothers while I continued to sit on the sidelines waiting, hoping, and hurting… a lot. Mother’s Day to women unable to conceive is a day of torment and dread, which drains so much already-depleted emotional energy from you that you feel you can barely stand or even breathe.
But… this year felt dramatically different. No, I am not a mother yet, but I am most assuredly an expectant mother, a mother-to-be, and enough people know that to make me feel pretty darn special about it. It is a unique stage in one’s life – waiting to be a mother for the first time – and I appreciated that many recognized this and celebrated it with me. I know that next Mother’s Day will be another unique and treasured day, but this Mother’s Day was special in its own right, and I am awed and grateful for the place God has brought us to.
What a special time for you. I’m so glad you are “joyfully waiting”! I hope you are preparing the cats, too. They may have a hard time with this.
Happy late Mother’s Day from one adoptive mom to another. I blogged on over after snooping around in Sparrow’s stuff.
Happy Mother’s Day! Hope you enjoyed your special day–you are a mother! Somewhere–1000s of miles from AZ there is a little toddler who is just waiting…My very favorite: He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the Lord! ~Psalm 113:9
Mother’s Day like baby showers. . .brings mixed emotions for me… With one bio, one adopted, and four who died unborn, I often think, gee, I’d really like a couple more children. Society tells me I am lucky for my bio son, doubly blessed by my adopted Ukrainian daughter, and that I shouldn’t talk about my four miscarried baby boys (taboo topic). But I sometimes still feel sad, unsatisfied and incomplete–and it is not that I’m not grateful and joyful over what I have. A couple months ago I found this verse:
There are three things that are never satisfied, four that never say “Enough!”: the grave, the barren womb, land, which is never satisfied with water, and fire, which never says, “Enough!” Poverbs 30:15-16
Why couldn’t I have found this 5 years ago?? All this time I felt like no one understood. Well–Surprise! God understood! And what’s more–he’s understood for 1000s of years!! Wow! It doesn’t answer the why, doesn’t really take away the desire, or the potential for more pain. But it sure helps me undertand me!!
KAMMI–who is feeling a little fiesty today