Adoption Process - Week 7 9/25/2004
Aside from the Adoptive Parenting Seminar we attended last weekend, there isn’t a whole lot to report. We received some packages containing documents we’ll be signing later on as well as requests for more documents we need to send asap (tax forms, W-2’s, pay stubs, etc.). I’m working today on getting a lot of that together along with a nice color page of photos of us, cats, and house.
Steve already mentioned the downer of the week, and I responded with some details in the comments section.
Emotionally, I feel like I’ve hit a bit of a wall. Waiting is the thing I suck at worse than anything else. God keeps giving me opportunities to develop patience, but I just can’t seem to apply it when needed. We’ve made almost no progress on L.T.’s room, and the whole adoption thing just isn’t feeling much like reality to me right now. Granted, this was a wicked week at work as we had a 2-day conference that I was responsible for planning and executing for 180 people (on top of all my normal responsibilities). No small endeavor, so my present fatigue is - I suppose - justified.
So I’ll stand up, wipe the sleep from my eyes, and start moving forward again.
Dear Jodi,
OF COURSE your fatigue is justified!! I trust the conference went smoothly. What a feat! :oD
Your experience of LT’s adoption “not feeling much like reality right now” is not unusual, I’m sure. Even when physically pregnant, there were days and weeks even, when I was not aware of being pregnant, especially during the months before I “showed”. I guess you fit in the “a little bit pregnant” category right now. Can’t see it, can’t feel it, it doesn’t show, STILL YOU KNOW IT’S TRUE!! But sometimes we’re just too tired. That’s OK, LT is waiting for you, and in God’s Perfect Timing, he’ll be in your arms.
My thoughts are similar to Nancy’s… There were many times when I did not feel pregnant even tho I was. Even in the later stages, it felt at times like a cruel hoax: this baby will never be born!
Be kind and grace-ful to yourselves. Allow for fatigue, disbelief, discouragement. These things prime the pump for parenthood, and in God’s good time, LT will be with you, filling your lives with joy and believability.
Hey Jodi,
Just keep perservering!!! I know the waiting time was definetly the hardest time for me. The paperwork went really smoothly and quickly and kept me running but when I got it all done, all I could do was WAIT and PRAY!!! It sounds like things are moving quickly for you guys!!! I’m so excited. I will keep watch on how things are going. Cheri keeps me posted too!!! God Bless you and your hubby.