About This Blog 3/21/2005
The question I pose is not so much whether I should or should not blog but why do I choose to blog? For whose benefit do I do this – if anyone’s? What purpose does it serve for me or for my readers? In the blogworld, this is the equivalent to the life questions, “Why do I exist? What is it all for?” We must not stop asking them.
In my case, I was introduced to blogging not because of a particular issue in my life but because my husband is a long-time blogger who encouraged me to start one. It seemed logical because I’m extremely opinionated – as anyone who has spent more than 2-3 minutes with me can attest. Still, I was a very bad blogger for a long time. I hardly ever posted. One reason is that the things which were really important to me were too personal to post to the web. Our struggle with infertility was probably the core issue of our lives since the start of 2000 until sometime in the last 6 months maybe, and I just didn’t know you could post such personal stuff on the web! Had I known, I might have started an infertility-related blog but would have had to keep it a secret from those closest and most important to me, and I didn’t want to do that.
My blog-abilities seem to have finally started to develop, but I’m finally having to ask myself what do I have a blog for? To an extent I think our adoption process has finally given me a “topic” that draws others in to some extent, whereas only those who knew us would have cared about anything I wrote before this process.
Lately I seem to be doing a slightly better job of blogging consistently – for me at least. I think the oppression I was under during our struggles with infertility and unemployment kept me from getting into it too much because the self-pity wheel was already spinning heartily without a public opportunity to whine.
I also want to have an opportunity to think out issues of faith, as my faith is becoming more and more of a significant part of my life. It always has been, but I am learning to own it for myself and apply it in more areas of life. Hopefully my readers will give me grace if I ever get on my “high-horse” as it is inevitably going to happen. I hope to remain teachable and humble even while sharing my ever-developing understanding of life as a disciple of Christ.
Hi Jodi,
I’ve just discovered your blog & think it’s fab! I’ve had 3 miscarriages in the last 18 months so my husband & I are just starting to think through the possibility of not being able to have children. We’re currently in our final year at a Bible college in Wales, UK, and for my independent study I’ve chosen to look at the issues facing Christian women unable to have children, and how churches and other Christians can best support and care for them. I was wondering if you’d be willing to answer a few questions about your experiences and ideas, maybe if I emailed some questions through to you? Do you know of anyone else it might be worth me getting in touch with either?
Thanks so much,
In Christ,
Katherine